when i got my body composition scan done, and was told by my dr that i had the body fat of an athlete, and that muscularly i was maxed out, i couldn’t believe it.
i have been athletic all my life, figure skating competitively for many years, performing in local dance companies after college. but i also struggled a lot with my weight. i joined overeaters anonymous for many years which helped me a lot. i learned how to spot, and resolve resentment, and what they call “self will”, as well as to see the connection between my eating to my inner feelings and my “”spiritual” well being. with that growth, i became able to make really good food choices, and maintain a good weight.
in my thirties i got married and began to have children… one after the other! now we have 5 beautiful children, ages 4 to 12. for the 10 years or so that i was either pregnant, nursing, or attached to little ones, i still ate well and did some exercise but naturally it could not be a main focus. a few years ago i felt that if i didn’t reconnect to my physical self i would go crazy. i just wasn’t comfortable in my body. i didn’t like that my stomach stuck out a bit, and that my butt sagged. i wasn’t over weight, but i felt like i wasn’t really myself – i wanted to be leaner, stronger, and more flexible. i wanted to be my best.
i started to carve out an hour or two a day for myself, to exercise really hard, and stretch. sometimes i felt guilty, like i was being selfish. but i saw how great i was feeling, and knew that it was important for me to address my own personal goals, not only those of my husband and children.
often i had a really negative mantra in my head: that i was fat, that nothing could change. i learned how to use positive affirmations to keep me centered, and off of the negative emotional downhill spiral.
today i am the most fit mom i know! i exercise really hard 5-6 days a week, and i eat really well. why? because it just makes me happy! it is part of a relationship that i have with myself… to listen to my body, and my heart, and do what makes me happy!
Deb W- Orange, CT