I have gone through some major life changes in the last few months and I myself have been extremely exhausted–sleeping 10-11 hours every night and still having no energy! I was so UN motivated and tired to the point of wondering if it was mild depression! I want to share my story with you for two reasons. First, I am human too and feel ALL the same things you go through to the extent of my experience. It’s always amazing to me to hear what clients think I am “like”. I am not super human. Secondly, through my pain and suffering, I hope to provide some hope, insight and maybe a new perspective on your own journey. I also want you to know that I truly understand.
As some if not most of you know, I got married in early August. In the few months prior to the wedding, I was on “super overdrive” trying to get all details taken care of and to help successfully fund our event. I had a wedding planner (who was great) and that did help but the stress of this undertaking especially when we did it as a destination wedding was HUGE- more than I thought. Well, more than I was aware at the time.
The wedding was fabulous and the wedding day was stress free thanks to all this planning! On our honeymoon, we got a call from Jeanne Peters who shared with us a “healer” named Ken that creates and works with flower essences. Jeanne had encouraged us to have a session with him if we could before we left the island. And we did.
To keep it short and simple, my reading was one of the deepest and intense readings he had ever done. He said it 4 times in the 45 minutes we spent focused on me. I think he was relieved when my reading was over because he wasn’t used to delivering such powerful news. Most flower essence readings are “kinda nice” as he described it.
The gist of my reading had to do with very early patterns growing up that I developed to compensate for something I didn’t want to feel. There has been a feeling for 30+ years that I have NOT allowed myself to feel! The flower essences were suppose to bring those up in order to balance them and dissolve them.
Let’s just say that for the past few weeks, since returning from the wedding, I have been not motivated, exhausted, depressed, and physically weak. This phase went on for 3-4 weeks!! ( I feel better now) If I didn’t have to leave the house, I wouldn’t. I even cancelled all my appointments one day because I was immobilized and my body felt heavy and weak. Even going for a walk would get me in my target heart rate zone! Just WALKING! I saw physical effects of my emotions. I had plenty of rest, I ate fairly well (I am still gluten free) so the only thing it could be was emotional.
Wow. What do you do when you feel this way? I had no idea. Normally, I just talk myself out of it! And choosing your thoughts is how to gain control of your life but I was doing it to AVOID feeling what I felt. And so the feelings would get “swept under the rug” so to speak and have built up over my life time.
So what if you are not motivated? I wasn’t. But what I was- was curious as to WHY. Of course I have the desire to be as healthy and as fit as I can. I didn’t like that I wasn’t working out. I didn’t like feeling exhausted. But just like a detox, I came to understand what was going on with me to except this”phase”.
Had Ken NOT explained that the emotions would be triggered, I may have not taken the whole prescribed bottle. But I knew to expect a detox of sorts. I also while really IN this, made peace with myself, forgave myself and tried to be as loving as I could. And then it passed. I didn’t fight it.
For some people, feeling unmotivated is the excuse to stay in that stage longer than you need to. It could be fear. Fear of failure. Fear of success. Fear of lack of support or fear of the unknown.
What is the underlying reason of your lack of motivation? I believe once you can pinpoint that– it dissolves.
For all the ladies who have made it to the end of this story, Jeanne Peters Rd and I are hosting a women’s only workshop called LOVE YOUR BODY. It’s happening November 7-9th, 2008. If you would like to get to the bottom of your lack of motivation or any other feeling that is stopping you from attaining the health and body YOU deserve, call or email to sign up. We’d love to help you transform your relationship with YOUR body.
Written by JJ Flizanes, Director of Invisible Fitness
800 571 5722